my childhood was just kind of....sad....i didn't have any friends and i had zero confidence and nothing much has changed.....
i wasn't abused or neglected or anything like that, but i have never felt close to my family or anyone else, so i kept them all at arm's length and never had any kind of close relationship with anyone, family included....because i never had conversations with anyone, i don't even know how....it makes it impossible for me to live a normal life and it's kind of a downward spiral i think....because socially i am so useless and as i get older i feel like people expect more of me in that way, and i am still in the same place i always have been, so i don't want to even try anymore because i will be exposing my stupidity.....or something.....